03.12.2007, Monday
At this time of the night, I can't sleep. Or should I say I don't feel like sleeping but to reminisce about the past and of course I mean the good ones that I'd always cherish on.
I've been thinking a lot. There are so much stuff that I miss doing. So much that I don't wanna ever forget about them.
One of those that I miss most are the times when SiewPun and I would once in a while go over to MeiMei's place for a swim and watch movies and just talk about whatsoever together. The reason why we got so close was partly because we live near each other. And that it all began last year till this year when SP and I were in different classes and that we stopped car-pooling to school and MM went to CempCheras. And I still remember the last time we did it was 5 months ago.
Sigh, how much I miss those times.
I hate changes. Changes, changes everything.
I've been thinking a lot. There are so much stuff that I miss doing. So much that I don't wanna ever forget about them.
One of those that I miss most are the times when SiewPun and I would once in a while go over to MeiMei's place for a swim and watch movies and just talk about whatsoever together. The reason why we got so close was partly because we live near each other. And that it all began last year till this year when SP and I were in different classes and that we stopped car-pooling to school and MM went to CempCheras. And I still remember the last time we did it was 5 months ago.
Sigh, how much I miss those times.
I hate changes. Changes, changes everything.
01.12.2007, Saturday
Yeah, it's the first day of the last month of 2007 today. Soon the sixteen years of my life would turn into seventeen and the loneliness of it would grow even more. I hope not though. I guess when you get your licence and a car to drive the more you'd drift away from your family, like you're given a pair of wings thinking you're getting all the freedom you've got already. Like now, I'm all alone at home and I hate every bit of it everytime I'm left alone. I've decided not to go out with friends this week though since I'm leaving for a vacation next week and that I didn't wanna spend. Yeah, how selfish can I be.
The amount of people that left me this year were countless. I don't mean that they left me for a negative reason but they left for good. All of em'. Some went to a different school and some went to a different country. Sometimes it's not the choice you get but you still gotta go with it.
The amount of people that left me this year were countless. I don't mean that they left me for a negative reason but they left for good. All of em'. Some went to a different school and some went to a different country. Sometimes it's not the choice you get but you still gotta go with it.
2007 ..
The year I met new people, got close to some, did stuffs I haven't done before, dated a random guy but nothing into a relationship. That has gotta be history now.
I guess I'm gonna miss 2007 a lot.
Every year I try keeping my resolutions and try not to dissappont it but it never happens.
So, sticking with my resolutions would be one of my resolutions for 2008. LOL.
I already had some other resolutions though but I'll keep it to myself in the mean time.
It isn't NewYear'sEve yet anyway. :)
I guess I'm gonna miss 2007 a lot.
Every year I try keeping my resolutions and try not to dissappont it but it never happens.
So, sticking with my resolutions would be one of my resolutions for 2008. LOL.
I already had some other resolutions though but I'll keep it to myself in the mean time.
It isn't NewYear'sEve yet anyway. :)
30.11.2007, Friday
How does it feel when you receive a random text or an instant message or a phone call from the person you were hoping for but there goes one from a person you least expected or not much of an interest of?
It pretty much suck. Worst still when you could possibly hear his/her voice as the background but knowing you're not talking to him/her.
But when your hope finally comes true, you're pretty much reluctant to talk or reply him/her.
You see, sometimes reality and hopes can collide that's when you know the timing isn't right.
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty ..
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty ..
29.11.2007, Thursday
Who knows I can multi-task. Blogging on my lappy while waiting for the page to load up on the desky.I'm very busy these days. Yes, busier than days in school. I've been following my mom up and down, left and right and all around to source for house stuffs and everything. And at home, I'm given tasks to source for the where-a-bouts of Syd, get maps and everything. I'm given a responsibility now. Pft! I hate responsibilities. Hahaha I'll get through it. I'm doing good by the way.
Who knows maybe one day I can go backpacking! Yesyes. This is a good start. =)
My head is banging so damn hard. It feels as though it's shrinking ..
In some ways ..
we grow up,
we have families,
we get married,
or divorce.
For the most part we still have our problems like when we were fifteen.
No matter how much we grow taller or grow older, we are still forever stumbling, forever wondering, forever young.
26.11.07, Monday
I AM VERY, VERY ANGRY! ANNOYED! DISTURBED! AND IRRITATED!
You think it's all funny and some kinda joke to you when you don't even know how fucking harsh those words are. It didn't seem that bad until you didn't stop and what more when you made it a routine! I am not being sensitive because a matter of fact you say it to me every fucking day and it pisses me off like no other! Everyone has a limit and it has gone way pass my limit! I feel like I've been verbally abused by you! You even asked me if it was irritating enough for me and that you could do worst. You know what? You're fucking immature. It is not funny anymore! I wonder if you have a life. Sometimes I feel like just punching you in the face or stab you to death. Seriously!
I just can't take it anymore!
You can even laugh about it when it isn't funny at all!
You bring my guts down, my self-esteem, my pride! I don't know why I always keep it to myself and not tell them! I know if I did, you'd get into fucking deep shit. But still I kept it to myself!
All I'm doing now is making me so damn hard and it's killing me! I hate keeping things to myself but I can't help it! Till I explode someday ..
YOU'RE FUCKED UP BY ALL REASONS! fucking dimwit
21.11.07, Wednesday
The morning after was our 4Science3 class party. We planned it just a few days before the last day of school and it was good that out of 17 people, 14 attended. 2 went on holidays and 1 couldn't come. Sometimes, the people in my class can be really cooperative and flexible with stuffs but sometimes there's just some downsides that can't be helped.
Went to KLCC by the lrt alone in the morning for the first time cause my mom asked me to. Yeah, I never thought she would ask me to do that but she did anyway. So, I went there and met up with Farah. Got out of KLCC and we thought of taking the bus to Pavilion but it didn't come, took the taxi instead. Reached there around 11 and we both walked around, most time spent in Forever21. We were early so we kinda got the shop all to ourselves till the worker kinda got pissed at us for trying on clothes.
Then, walked over to Starhill at almost 2 and met up with the rest of the classmates. Class party was a Late Lunch thing at Jogoya. So, yeah .. We got the room. And they had promotion, ladies pay only half the price! haha .. Too bad for them guys. Ate. Talked. Met some dickhead there, of all the places. Care less. Walked. Chilled. Ate. Went back to Pav, walked more till Amirah, Meiyan and Dani left. Farah, Shahir and I went back to chill at Lecka Lecka. They both left and I walked back to Pav alone to meet up with my brother and friend to watch them have dinner. You have no idea how bad my legs were hurting that day. That's when I call it a day.
I'm gonna miss 4Science3 for some reason. It was something that I never thought my class would do but I'm glad it went on well.
I'm too lazy to post up the pictures already. It's on my facebook anyway.
So, that's about it. Goodnight! =)
Went to KLCC by the lrt alone in the morning for the first time cause my mom asked me to. Yeah, I never thought she would ask me to do that but she did anyway. So, I went there and met up with Farah. Got out of KLCC and we thought of taking the bus to Pavilion but it didn't come, took the taxi instead. Reached there around 11 and we both walked around, most time spent in Forever21. We were early so we kinda got the shop all to ourselves till the worker kinda got pissed at us for trying on clothes.
Then, walked over to Starhill at almost 2 and met up with the rest of the classmates. Class party was a Late Lunch thing at Jogoya. So, yeah .. We got the room. And they had promotion, ladies pay only half the price! haha .. Too bad for them guys. Ate. Talked. Met some dickhead there, of all the places. Care less. Walked. Chilled. Ate. Went back to Pav, walked more till Amirah, Meiyan and Dani left. Farah, Shahir and I went back to chill at Lecka Lecka. They both left and I walked back to Pav alone to meet up with my brother and friend to watch them have dinner. You have no idea how bad my legs were hurting that day. That's when I call it a day.
I'm gonna miss 4Science3 for some reason. It was something that I never thought my class would do but I'm glad it went on well.
I'm too lazy to post up the pictures already. It's on my facebook anyway.
So, that's about it. Goodnight! =)
20.11.07, Tuesday
And so, it was Ms. Tok's wedding dinner.
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